i have been feeling damn empty and hollow that AYC is over. just emailed one of the vietnamese delegates! xD i was walking around sch in AYC daze and evrythng i cld think abt was "AYC this and AYC that". and i nearly cried when one of my classmates started singing the YMCA song (she didnt know i was suffering from post-AYC blues) and yeah, i only got 2 basketball shots cuz i was emo-ing. and one of my fren was like "are you okay? or is this the new Kanages i am seeing?" ahhhh, i just want back AYC'09!
i didnt want to do anythng else than go back in time. during morn assembly, i looked at my watch and went like "i would have been at YMCA at this time probably having breakfast". and the whole day "AYC" was ringing in my head. and i slept during geog lesson and having to sit at the front row of class the teacher asked me to go wash my face. and yeah, after that , every lesson i went to wash my face to prevent myself from sleeping.
thanks would go across to everybody and esp. grp 4 faclos but being there all the time. hahah, i rmber cheering for every single thing that included grp 4 or vietnam 1 ! xD and i rmber screaming during ASEAN DAY and NDP celebration and waking up damn freaking late on friday with only five mins to throw on clothes and no time to comb hair.and walking around bugis, chinatown, ion orchard and wisme atria with hair still in the tangle from the sleep. and i still have a lot of AYC photos to upload and tag!
yesterday i missed lunch with my fellow lovely SLOs cuz i, ash, nghi and wan jing went to the terminal to sent off our dear vietnam delegates. Viet Nam MOT! then, yes i cried, and we were hugging each other and stuff. come back next year delegates! i love you guys! i shld be studying for math test tmrw now but i really need to get a lot of feeling out of my chest. there's so much i want to say but my fingers are too slow to match according to the thought running thru my brain.
when we went back to YMCA after farewell dinner, vietnam 1 was singing "goodbye" in vietnamese for us. and i cld not take it anymore and i broke down. actually i cried b4 that....but nvm.
oh yeah, then yesterday i went back to have lunch with ash, nghi and wanjing. and yeah, i still owe nghi the SMILE game!bugis food junction is starting to fill nostalgic. when i first met my dear grp 4 Faclos there for the first time when we got to know each other, we had dinner there, and we brought our CBWS vietnam grp there for lunch one of the days and we ended off by having lunch together as grp 4 Faclos on the last day. i am still trying to hold back tears thinking of all the memories that the ppl around me at AYC have created for me. grp 4 faclos really taught me that you can be bonded in those longest and shortest 8 days. i love you guys loadS!
oh, and ASEAN DAY WAS THE BLAST, BABY!i freaking enjoyed myself at J8. and then on our way to J8 the grp 4 faclos were singing songs! hahah, and nghi was videoing while i, ash, and wan jing were singing welcome to my life in a non-emo manner. that day was really a great one! hahah, and i rmber how seetoh and i saboed ash and nghi to sing love story during AYC idol. hahah, towards the end of the song wan jing, i, and seetoh joined in. afterall it was our idea! hahah, and seetoh and his saliva joke till i laughed till my stomach hurt. oh yeah, grp 4 go check out for your six packs after AYC from laughing at seetoh's jokes. seriously!
xD then i still rmber when some of the SLOs were having closing ceremony briefing in the hotel room and the "pop" joke and preshant who went like "i never POP!"! lol! hahah, and we were making jokes abt his overgrown-ness. there is so much things i want to say, seriously, but too much memories are flooding back.
and the grp 4 Faclos we were like talking abt how we ALL shld come back for next year AYC though it wld be different...and hopefully be back in our bonded grp 4 faclos grp. oh and the day 8 morning we bought Macs breakfast for our Vietnam grp and gave away the extras to ppl we knew. then during lunch,seetoh SMS-ed us and went like "i cried today". it was hard taking it in cuz he was the guy that made evryone laugh even when i was crying. i think when he saw the vietnamese and indonesian delegates leaving in the bus then it dawned upon him.
Sometimes, i admire Nghi for being strong and not crying. i guess he's used to it ready cuz he came to boarding sch in s'pore when he was in sec 3. and he was like telling us how evry time he came to the airport he wanted to go back to vietnam! AYC was my first for a lot of things which includes:
- playing guitar (it was ziyad's guitar)for my first time with Joelle's help, actually it was Love Story
- speaking vietnamese
- learning how to say you are a gay santa claus with white beard in Chinese
- and many many other stuff which i will hold on to.
oh yeah, then we SLOs did a SLO(W) video hahah! thanks to zhuo ning for putting together the videos and the SLOs for the photos. lol, and i still rmber that i was the one who inserted in randome sub titles! i have to admit that some of the song choices were not appropriate and to make it worse, the lyrics were not heard and only the music came out. but stilll.....IT WAS GOOD!
i miss everything abt AYC and even the dorm at YMCA! it had been home for 6 nights with a couple of AWESOME people.
and i know i am not the only one suffering from post-AYC....i just came across Rifdi's blog and i wld like to insert an extract from it which brought me close to tears:
"I'm sorry to my groups for being such a neglectful SLO, and not doing my duties to the max of my potential. If you all had anything short of an enjoyable time, it's my fault. I look at all the other groups (especially Group 4), and envy them for their togetherness. Their SLOs all rock socks, and I always feel like the weakest link amongst them, choosing to hide behind my lens instead."
firstly, rifdi helped to take photographs like anythng to capture the lovely times evryone had. i really salute him for working behind that camera for days. and the second part of the extract was the one which brought me to tears. damn it, I FREAKING LOVE YOU GROUP 4 AND ASH,NGHI AND WAN JING!YOU GUYS BETTER COME BACK NEXT YEAR!I ALSO LOVE YOU TOO, VIET NAM MOT! (that means vietnam 1 in vietnamese)It's hard creating a bonded grp of people and even harder letting them go. it's like you continue giving them evrythng you can though you know you will end up crying later even when you know it.
TO ALL THE PEOPLE OF AYC, YOU MAYBE A FACLO,OT OR DELEGATE BUT SERIOUSLY THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO WORK WITH YOU GUYS AND CREATE THOSE MEMORIES!
ALSO, HATS OFF TO SOPHIA, JIA YING, YUH YIING AND ZHONG MIN! xD you guys made it awesome for evrybody.
and lastly.....
I WANT NOBODY, NOBODY BUT YOUU!!
what we could have been, 4:23 AM.
